It's all about me...

(I do feel a bit vain putting 4 photos of myself up...I suppose my excuse is its so you know what I look like ha)

I decided for today's post to steer away from my usual beauty reviews/other ramblings and give you a little update on me and my life, which may justify the lack of posts on here (and the quality of them!)

I guess the biggest news is my move back home - you might remember from previous posts/youtube videos/tweets that I had moved down to England at the end of March, but basically it didn't work.

Lee and I are still together, but the living situation there wasn't practical (we were living with his mum, sister and her boyfriend and baby, plus two dogs!) and it did cause quite a lot of arguments/tension.

I also had a rotten time of it in my job down there - I was essentially being bullied - and so when it came to the end of my probationary period there, we came to a mutual agreement that I was going to leave.

So rubbish job, tense homelife, HORRENDOUS homesickness did not make for a good experience, and as a result I became very, very down. If I got by one day not crying that was an achievement, and there were days I couldn't be bothered to do anything, not even put on my makeup. I can't remember how it was decided exactly, but my Mum basically made the decision for me to come back home, and so here I am.

I take my hat off to Lee, he packed up all my stuff, drove most of the way home (I think I did about an hour and a half's worth of driving out an 8 hour journey!) and is now determined to get a job up here so he can move (if anyone knows of any woodwork-based jobs in south-west Scotland please let me know!).

I am incredibly glad/relieved to be home, and generally I do feel better, but I still have wobbly days. As i'm unemployed I am currently on a Jobseekers allowance, and whilst I am entirely entitled to this, having worked for several years before now, I do feel there is a bit of a stigma attached to being 'on the brew', and I feel VERY uncomfortable about it, especially talking about having to 'sign on' and whatnot.

I have only essentially been out of work for about a month, but it feels much longer, and it is incredibly disheartening every time I receive a rejection letter/email (if I get such any response at all!), telling me that candidates with skills 'better matched' than mine have been selected. Generally I am applying for PA/admin jobs - it's not rocket science!

I think part of my problem as well is that i'm not entirely sure what I want to do with my life. I've never been someone who knew what they wanted to do with their life when they 'grew up', and as such have spent my work life doing mainly office based jobs, just to get by really.

Ideally I'd like to win the Euromillions but I can't see that happening any time soon sadly...!

I had been hoping to use some of my time (since I now have plenty of it) to do more blog posts, but i've been struggling to find the enthusiasm/energy to do it of late, particularly after very monotonous days of job applications, so apologies for that.

Thank you for sticking by me, and fingers crossed I get my mojo back!